Encouraging self :]

"The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core...,


This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start...,




...Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find...."

Unbearable Lightness of being

hello Milan Kundera, semoga anda tidak marah karena saya mencampuradukkan parodi sekaligus camuflase dari novel hermeneutika anda..

menyelami karakter Tereza, kenapa semua hal terasa berat bagi anda? Apakah makhluk dari mars itu sedemikian selalu harus diimbangi dalam aliran Neptunus?!

kenapa semua terasa terlalu menghimpit, meminta kesabaran sedikit lagi saja..

“The heaviest of burdens crushes us, we sink beneath it, it pins us to the ground. But in love poetry of every age, the woman longs to be weighed down by the man's body.The heaviest of burdens is therefore simultaneously an image of life's most intense fulfillment. The heavier the burden, the closer our lives come to the earth, the more real and truthful they become. Conversely, the absolute absence of burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant. What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?”
― Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Sophia dan Philo I

Kalau suatu hari nanti saya sudah bebas dari lingkaran hitam yang  selalu ada di atas kepala saya ini, saya akan memberikan sedikit jabaran pengenalan. Dengan ditambahkan kronologis bagaimana bisa kaki saya menginjak ruang yang sangat ajaib ini, hingga kini saya jatuh cinta setengah mati padanya. Diberi sedikit deskripsi  latar belakang campuran perspektif modern, postmodern hingga kontemporer saja mungkin.
Bagaimana sedari awal mencoba beradaptasi, mengelak, menghujat dan dihujat, hingga akhirnya merasakan seperti kesatuan yang sulit dipisahkan. Benar-benar merasa sophia itu sangat berharga.
Gusti, gusti. Sungguh maha membolak-balikan hati. Sekarang rasa sukur menjadi tak henti-henti terucap. :)

Celoteh

Menahan rasa untuk tidak mengeluh ke kamu itu, seperti memaksa aku bernafas di ruang berasap. 

Sesak.